I want to dedicate this site to
my Lost Furry Friends

Life and death.,joy and sadness...
standing side by side........
Of course I know , when a new cat comes in my life there will be a time
 we have to depart..
..They are not gone for ever., but is hard to accept
they don't share the life I am living anymore
Only in my mind.....
They are just out of my sight.... 
 Sometimes we will meet eachother...
Sweeties, wait for us...
The cats mentioned below, were beloved cats by us..young and old...
Some left us to early. 

We lost our foundationqueen ALICIA 
on 21-01-01
She was tired.......and didn't/ couldn't  eat anymore.
ALicia was almost 15 years..She was bormn 27-05-1986

We miss her though she lives in her children
and grandchildren...
Till we meet again  Alicia.
I had to let you go just out of love..
Alicia for ever.....

THANKS for ALL the beautifull years you shared with us  and thanks for your children and grand-grandchildren..They are just as you..
Each time I see them I think of you..Alicia.
You are unforgettable..
I have to accept.
WE LOVE YOU        for ever. 

  I hope you are with Xybilleke now...   See x-file site
who died in september 2000 , being only  1 day in this world 
My little baby ,I even do not have a  picture of her alone,
 She was to short here,but long enough for loving her. 
We were looking forward to her when Mom Harlequino was pregnant...  
I wanted to give her a life full of love , 
but nature decided else.

God has taken another sweetie 
of my breed
 Wendo-Lynn 

her life was short...  26-12-1999~~~~ 10-11-2001
I don't really know what illness she had,
No post-mortem was done, though I asked  the owner.Important  to know for my breeding programm of course, but no help came from him... 
 Some calls, she is sick we have to put her down. Only a decision  on  1 symptom...

I cannot understand this.. 
WendoLynn , my christmaschild lived here 11 months and then she went away...
I thought into a good home. But words and behaviour are different...
Now , exact 12 months later ,she is gone forever.
Not all vets are good, and owners trust them to much, What the vet says,,,they believe... and not what the breeder knows...I can tell you , what breeders know is important .  
See f.i my A-litter, 5 babys, though the vet said we have to sterilize her.  I did it my way !!!!!
Practice and theory....We have to listen to eachother.!!!!!

Even now the new owner is angry with me though I want to talk
Mails are not answered and telephonecalls ?Smashing down the telephone, when seeing or hearing it is me..That is the answer
 It hurts ,,the lost of a sweet, well educated ,healthy little cat and then this behaviour afterwards..He makes me responsible for the death ..though my sweet Wendo-Lynn had to much changeable circumstances and could have developed fip out of stress...
The knowledge from the new owner is to small to understand that this could be the cause..and so I am the " evel " 
I cannot explain  to him how this could happen...
.It hurts because as breeder we try to give the kitttens the best homes...Another sweetie of me is living there. I want to know how he is ,but I get no answers... 
Before her death I was the best breeder he could find and  he did have the sweetest and most beautifull cats there are .you know.            and now,,, 
   My life is disturbed. and I think I stop breeding..People are very cruel ... 

Life of a breeder is hard sometimes.. How can people do so?
 A good breeder loves the children even when they  are gone from them.I  would go on my knees to get her back....wherever I should go.. 
WENDO-LYNN 

 
I'll never forget you. It is 3 years ago now, but it still hurts
I will meet her again one time, but I wanted to say goodbye to her on that saturday.  ..It was not given to me. 
I wanted to give her roses on her last journey and much kisses but it all failed. .
She was gone before I knew...and  the new owner is angry with me and on no speaking terms..It hurts very very much

Dear WendoLynn, the roses on this page are for you too. 
I'll remember  you in my heart as the sweetest silver girl I  had. 
Some day ..   wait for me. sweetie...I 'll embrace you.
Your brother WiggleWaggle is stil living here..He sends much meows to you.
Here a song for you..

My Heart Will Go On 

Every night in my dreams 
I see you, I feel you
That is how I know you go on.
Far across the distance and spaces between us
You have come to show you go on.
Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on.
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on.

Love can touch us one time and last for a lifetime
And never let go till we're gone.
Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold you
In my life we'll always go on.
Near, far wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on.
Once more, you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on.

You're here, there's nothing I fear
And I know that my heart will go on.
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart 
And my heart will go on and on.

Celine Dion 

POEMS

An Angel Is Born
I held you in my arms,
As you took your final breath,
Tears filled my eyes
As I finally accepted your death.

As you become an angel,
Tear drops hit the floor,
Silence fills the room
Pain you'll feel no more.

How will I live without you?
How will I go on?
How will I face another day,
Knowing that you're gone?

But I wasn't selfish,
I only thought of you,
The peace that you must feel,
It was something I had to do.

So fly up to heaven,
Be at peace my baby,
We had a lifetime of something wonderful,
Never forget how happy you made me.

I STOOD BY YOUR BED LAST NIGHT

I stood by your bed last night,I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying,You found it hard to sleep.
I whined to you softly as you brushed away a tear,
"It's me, I haven't left you, I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."

I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea,
You were thinking of the many times, your hands reached down to me.
I was with you at the shops today, Your arms were gettingsore.
I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could do more.

I was with you at my grave today, You tend it with such care.
I want to reassure you, that I'm not lying there.
I walked with you towards the house, as you fumbled for yourkey.
I gently put my paw on you, I smiled and said "it's me."

You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair.
I tried so hard to let you know, that I was standing there.
It's possible for me to be so near you everyday.
To say to you with certainty, "I never went away."

You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew,
in the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.
The day is over... I smile and watch you yawning
and say "good-night, God bless, I'll see you in the morning."

And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide
I'll rush across to greet you and we'll stand, side by side.
I have so many things to show you, there is so much for youto see.
Be patient, live your journey out ... then come home to be with me.

Author Unknown

I am free 

Don't grieve for me; for now I'm free, I'm following the path God layed for me,
 I took his lead when I heard Him call, I turned back and then left it all,

I could not stay another day, To purr, to love, to work, or play, 
Events uncompleted must stay that way, I'm found at peace at the close of the day.

If my parting left a void, then fill it with remembered joy, 
A friendship shared, a purr, a kiss, Oh yes, these things I, too, will miss.

Be not burdened with times of sorrow, I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow. 
My life's been full, I savored much: Good friends, good times, a loved one's touch.

Perhaps my time seemed all too brief, Don't lengthen it now with undue grief,
 Lift up your heart and share with me; God wanted me now, he set me free.

My YULIAN flew away....

 27-02-2001-----07-12-2001
Our beloved Yulian died when  he only was 9 months by acute pneumonia 
I noticed he didn't feel well, was sitting on the same place all time. So I went to the vet ,who oxamined him  .
He had fever and some noise on the lungs .He got an injection against his fever on  monday 3 december 2001. 
The right medication was given too late in my opinion .
.On wednesday he should get a tablet, I gave it ,but it didn't do anything The fever was  still high on thurdsday and so I went back to the vet.He got antibiotics this time and from that time he got worse and worse.O my God . It was terrible, that  night He(and I) was fighting.We were on the bed togetherI hold him and said words to get better.
I got tired from sitting on hte bed and put him in the large kittencage.so he could sleep a while, even could I ....( though)     
 In the early morning he meowed 3 times to me , I told him that I love him  , and would do ALL to make him better, After this meows he felt down in his cage His hea on the litterbox.I still see  it in my eyes and hear his screem My beloved Yulian was gone... Gone forever..but is still in my heart 

I still do have his sisters Ysabelle and Yasmine 
they remind me on him 

And another cat  flew away. 
 My beloved MarGallita.
A site for her to honor

© marie-josée febr.2001-2004

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